Anniversary

[unforth]

deadmanwade and I never had a definite anniversary. We didn't get together in a particularly normal fashion, and there was time when we were dating rather in secret, and it was generally messy. Every year, we've tried to decide on a day that, in the future, we would call our anniversary. It had to be early April, cause that was when we got together, and though we tried to come up with a day, we never ended up acting on it.


This year, finally, in February (right after Val day, I believe) we finally decided conclusively on April 15th.

Little did we realize at the time that:
1. it was the Renn Faire
2. it was feyangel's birthday
3. it was kendokamel's birthday
4. it was the day after miraeko's birthday.
5. it was the day after the interlude and the day before the Hogwart's game - a window in which people had some time to spend to enjoy these other events.

So yeah. It's our anniversary tomorrow, 5 years of not killing each other yet, but we're not gonna celebrate it for another few days I imagine. ;) (and the next opportunity is Tuesday, and I really don't want to do it Tuesday, because in the midst of all that messyness 5 years ago, the 18th was a bad enough day that I remember it being a bad day; it's also my dad's birthday...)...I'm sure we'll figure something out.



I've been thinking a lot about the things that happened 5 years ago. I'm not going to go into detail because, well, it's a long story, not very interesting, rather unflattering to everyone involved, and anyway it's water under the bridge at this point. The actual events are not what I've been thinking about. Instead, I've been remembering how it felt to be a freshman in college. It was so wonderful. I was so happy, I remember thinking I'd left high school and gone to summer camp for a year. Then, at the end of March, it all fell apart, and within the span of less than a month, I ceased to be on speaking terms with my two closest friends of the time, gained a boyfriend, lost my virginity, been told by another friend that said boyfriend would mistreat me horribly, cried alone a lot (my mother, who is usually my support network, was in Southeast Asia at the time and therefore completely unreachable) and generally layed the groundwork for conflicts that would remain for my entire time as an undergradute. In short, it was a really big disaster, and one of the worst times of my life.

Coming to Bloomington, I've noticed increasingly in the past months that many of those feelings of "summer camp" have been returning, and it's made me really happy to not have to worry about all of the shit that used to be every day concerns in Binghamton. Thus, it has been with increasing consternation that I've watched the approach of this time of year, because I kept thinking, "sure, everything is great now, but it was great then too..." A small part of me counted down to the beginning of April like it was an approaching D-Day.

Well, the troubled time is almost past. The last big explosion of that time five years ago took place on April 18th, when my then best friend told me she didn't want to have anything to do with me anymore because I was spending all my time with deadmanwade and she felt ignored and neglected. After that, it was all rebuilding what was lost in the two and a half weeks prior. It's a load off my mind, in truth, that this time has come and gone and no trains have derailed, no wrecks have happened, and no one has felt the need to tell me off for any reason.

That said, if you do need to tell me off, please do so. I'm much better at handling that sort of thing than I was 5 years ago. I got a lot of practice in Binghamton...(and now I get to find out if fireun reads my LJ...;) )

Comments

[ultimabaka.livejournal.com]

I knew shit between you and them was pretty bad, but I never really knew just how bad it really was? I'm glad ya got outta there too :)

As for April reading your LJ, I doubt that happens anymore. She's too busy wrapping her clutches around the new freshmen $. I hear she's even starting to look like Kevin now. Although I still say Kevin would look better in a halter top...
-- Gerardo

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Kevin looks great in anything - you should see his stiletto's and fishnets...(oh, and Bloomington folk, I mean a different Kevin...)...he and April are a couple made in...well, somewhere. Probably not Heaven.

[fireun.livejournal.com]

yes i read your lj. i have had you friended for quite some time. usually too busy to comment in anyones posts though

[buzzermccain.livejournal.com]

I hate you both.

A whole bunch.

Really.

RRRRRHHHH!!!!

Does that make you feel better? Sense of impending doom resolved?

-K

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, it's such a relief to feel intensely disliked again. :)

[kniedzw.livejournal.com]

I have decided this moment that I am never speaking to you again.

So there.

[deadmanwade.livejournal.com]

whew, glad we dont have to hear from THAT jackass again.

PBTHHHHH!!!!!

[kniedzw.livejournal.com]

Note I said nothing about you. Just Claire. I shall hound you until the end of time.

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Haha, take that deadman!

[deadmanwade.livejournal.com]

damnit, soooo close

[kendokamel.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Well, yay! I hope you have a splendid day!

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Thanks! you too!

[nekomata.livejournal.com]

I've been married almost as long as you've been dating. Wow.

[unforth.livejournal.com]

lol...that is something!