Back to the Horrible Limbo

[unforth]

I've been suspecting for about a week that my unreasonable stress levels (I feel far more stressed out than my current level of commitment warrants) were linked to the limbo of waiting to find out when I can start sending out my resume or looking for a home in Boston. Now I know it's the case. My superior at work as decided to decline the job at the Smithsonian because it's not going to pay enough. I found this out about an hour ago, and have had horrible stressed out stomach ache ever since, because this effectively kicks the shit out the only little window of stability I had found in the horrible limbo. Fucking NBSS. Just send out the goddamn letters already so I can move on with my fucking life!!! Aaargh!

I've found that there are two kinds of stressed out. One is where you realize you have a ton to do, so you knuckle down and just do it one thing at a time; the other is where you realize that you have a ton to do, but it's just all so overwhelming that you can't even conceive of where to start so you sit and stew and it gets worse and worse and cycles out of control. I hate feeling the second way, and I do right now, and it sucks. I just want to KNOW so I can start on what I have to do next!! Goddamn it!! :(

I'm not as bad off as I sound. I just needed to rant. Sorry everyone. :)

Comments

[kendokamel.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Things could always be worse - I could have just had my hand chopped off by the evil bastard who claims to be my father.

[d-c-m.livejournal.com]

*big hug* Oh sweetie, so do we understand. Communicate your stress and try not to let it eat you up. *big hug again*

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Yeah, this is the public follow up to a pointless rant that I did privately the night before. :) It's not private because of secrets, but just cause I didn't figure anyone cared enough to slog through it, and the point was more to just to get it off my chest.

[ultimabaka.livejournal.com]

What? Garbage...I woulda read it all. Hell, if I read this last night, I woulda called you up. Minor things like the issue already being resolved never get in the way of my stepping in - you should know that by now!

:)
-- Gerardo

[mindstalk.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear that. Good luck!

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

[(Anonymous)]

That's so lame! I'm so sorry, and it really bums me out too. :(

[schenker28.livejournal.com]

That's so lame! I'm so sorry, and it really bums me out too. :(

[unforth.livejournal.com]

aaaargh!!

[kniedzw.livejournal.com]

Catharsis is good, and I'm sorry to hear about the stress. I understand where you're coming from with regard to having too much to do, however. It's looking like it'll be October before I actually have free time again. *sigh*

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Weddings do that, I've heard...

[sapphohestia.livejournal.com]

Sorry for all the uncertainty. Can you contact Boston for an update?

[unforth.livejournal.com]

Not really. They told me when to expect to hear back from them; until that date has passed I don't feel at all justified in getting in touch with them, and that's still about two weeks from now...maybe more like 3...